The other day I stood at the kitchen sink washing dishes for the umpteenth time while my children ran and giggled around me and my husband was on the couch relaxing after a hard day at work. No one was doing anything wrong. No one was leaving me chores that were not already mine to do. But I felt tired. And alone. And irritated.
I dont have the most difficult job in the world. My days are spent problem solving, cleaning, cooking, and assisting others. I am the helpmate. The one the other members of my family go to first for answers on any number of things from belly aches to locating a flashlight, answering math problems to changing the toilet paper dispenser. And sometimes I get discouraged and feel as though my whole life revolves around keeping other people's lives in working order. Sometimes I feel like I am watching life from the sidelines.
It was then, on that typical night of washing dishes, that I remembered that the God I love also goes by the Name El-Roi, "The God Who Sees." And I looked out the kitchen window into the night and whispered, "Thank you, God, that right now You see me."
I love this, kendra.
ReplyDeleteMy FAVORITE name of God! El Roi! :)
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